The last week and a half has been pure madness. Hence, my lack of writing.
I also need to address the fact that I was nominated for a blogging award — which is AWESOME but I haven’t gotten around to following the steps needed once you have been nominated. I apologize, I will get to that ASAP.
Essentially, my life has been turned upside down.
In the last week and a half, I went to visit my sister (and Ben — yes, Ben) in Chicago. I thought a lot about what is important to me and what the implications of my own priorities are and I am in the process of *possibly* moving to Chicago, leaving this factory for a new one, being closer to my sister, leaving Sean and our who-knows-what-future, and my current friends/department that I love.
It’s not for Ben. It’s truly that after moving so many times in 23 years (11 times I believe), I have never found a city that called to me and that I felt a genuine sadness to leave like I do with Chicago.
I don’t see myself at the Headquarters of my company at all. I see myself as a writer or a lawyer or an overall Badass. and I see myself in Chicago, not where our Headquarters are.
But people change, so I may change. Luckily, moving from one factory to another doesn’t mean I can never go back to the Headquarters. Luckily, the decision I make here based on being closer to my sister (family is something people basically understand at this company) is not one that burns bridges. At least that is how I am trying to make it.
But what about Sean? What about Ben? How do I feel? How do my feelings for either one affect this? Well, imagine my body as a rope toy. There are two adorable puppies tugging at each end. Not that I am even sold on ever dating Ben again, but…what if?
If none of this makes sense, then it’s probably not supposed to. Probably just ramblings from the mind of a madwoman.
I could not be more confused right now.
Posted on March 5, 2013, in Family, fear, Love, Manufacturing, Relationships, Therapy, Work and tagged chicago, confusion, ex-boyfriends, family, love, madness, moving, relationships, relocation, sister. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.